Sleep of the dead – Day seven
Last night was just wonderful as I had that first sleep of the dead, well the sleep wonderful anyway, I got to bed around 12:15 and awoke at around 2:00 thinking I’d had an entire night of sleep. It was like that for the rest of the night, waking up thinking I’d had a further five hours or so of sleep only to find I’d been out for an hour.
Soooo, my first promised sleep of the dead. Anyhow the day before I hadn’t wore a patch all day, I’d noticed as I had mentioned that the patch had fallen off in my sleep the night before and I just didn’t get around to putting one on. Anyway the day went without a hitch, I took my daughter to see my parents and we had a lovely time and I came back to a sullen but not aggressive partner so everything was OK.
This morning though after my sleep I tried to help my other half by suggesting she should take her mother to the doctors with her as she wasn’t exactly acting herself. Well, I then suffered a full on assault how evil I was, how this was another tactic in my bullying, how I’d latched onto something her Mum had said and was using it against her, how she was more sane than her Mum etc. etc. lots of bizarre stuff to add to the bizarre book of my partner. Luckily this all went off before my daughter got up and I wished them both a good day – ignored by partner, worried about daughter – and went to work.
I’m now at work and not feeling my best, this is one of those moments I really feel like reaching for a fag, she really is getting too much for me now. I think I’ll try a patch now and see how I feel later. I’m just worried about my little girl now.
See how the experiment works, I really don’t need to be hitting the ciggies again.
If this is inception and a new start I really need to sort out this situation, how do you do it so I get to see my daughter and keep away from her mother. You could argue that I should give her support but now all my support is being turned to hatred and distrust from her and I’ve now had enough, this has gone on for years now.