What was I thinking about, two weeks without a fagerette and on my way home from the hills yesterday I bought a pack of ten, had five and threw away the remaining five.
I had a really lazy weekend enjoying it with my daughter and at the first sign of a bit of stress and I reach for the ciggies. Strange thing though is that every time I give up and start again the adverse reaction seems to get worse and worse. This time I really didn’t enjoy it, I had a couple in a car park in Bishop and the effect was barely there. On nearly getting home I chain-smoked the remaining three and didn’t feel well at all. I got home and felt dizzy with a headache, my cheek felt strangely numb and on going to bed I just felt a little unwell. I got up this morning and I’ve had a headache (which is really unusual for me) all day long, my teeth have not felt good and a Paracetamol numbed the headache and cancelled most of the tooth based pain but didn’t finish it off. Today has not been good, add to that my mouth tastes awful and I’ve just been in a fug all day and you might go someway to the feeling I’m going through.
I’m going to have to get out running soon, I would have tonight or even done a row but I felt that it may not have been such a great idea with my head feeling so achy.
Got my new blank running diary in the post today. I know I’ll be filling in a lot of the detail online but as I’ve been doing it longhand for years now I thought it would be good to keep up the tradition. This time rather than a cheapy book from WH Smiths I’ve gone and invested in an Italian handmade Ciak Quaderno A Pagine Bianche Blank Notebook with a black cover in Large A5 (Large A5 being important as the A5 Cartesio I bought previously wasn’t as wide as my other A5 running diarys, so it’s all cost me a bit of an arm and a leg).
Anyway it is a really beautiful empty book at the moment and I’m going to hate filling in my last two missed runs and spoiling its virgin pages. Ohhh I do so love a blank book.
Back to square one then…